1I may seem happy on the outside but actually I’m really a morbid guy. Death always seems to be on my mind (especially since my kids were born). It’s probably one of the reasons why I love Six Feet Under and Dead Like Me. I’m not depressed, in fact now that I think about it I am a pretty happy guy; I’m just always thinking about my own death, or the death of my wife or kids or parents. I’m constantly facing my own and others mortality. Every time I cross the street I picture myself getting hit by a car. If I’m going down some stairs I can feel myself falling down them and breaking my neck. When I look at my children I can see them falling down stairs and lying dead at the bottom. You would think that I’m a nervous wreck but actually I’m not, I think I’m pretty relaxed. We are all going to die one day, hopefully later rather than sooner, hopefully peacefully rather than painfully. I think about death to come to terms with my and others mortality. I don’t want to die and I hope my consciousness continues for a very long time (or forever) but one day this life will end and who knows what will happen afterward. I try not to fear death and instead embrace it and prepare for it.
This is all beside the point, what I was really aiming for was the fact that I always tell my wife and kids that I love them. Whenever I leave the house I give them kisses and hugs and tell them I love them. Whenever I’m on the phone before I hang up I tell them that I love them. If we are angry or upset I try to make up with them before I leave and tell them that I love them. I don’t ever want to leave my wife and kids without letting them know that I love them because they could be dead before I get a chance to see them again. I want to know that if the last time I saw my wife and kids was really the last time I ever saw them, then at least it was happy and I told them that I loved them.
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